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Current Music:RIch-Yeah, Yeah, Yeah's.
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Time:08:26 pm
Current Mood:surprisedsurprised Lauren thinks...cute
I got the yeah, yeah, yeah's cd!!! They are so fucking cool, I havn't stopped listing to them for three days. Besides that, there's this girl bethany who's completly in love with me, the problem...She's fucking thirteen. there is no way in hell that I'd try something there I mean, come on now! I'd feel like a craddle robber being near enough to seventeen now that I can say to people "I'm Seventeen".
My friend Britiny is so grounded now that she can't almost do as much as breath...I wish there was something I could do about that...but I can't do much there...'sides her parents hate me...(No where not like THAT.)
My best friend, and sometimes rivial in all things, Ryan he has a car...we just took a drive around...makes me miss my old car before it broke down. (IT was a ford festivia POS anyway.) Another thing! I sent Lauren a picture...(my sort of ex, but not really because, then again not really not ex because...fuck it.) of me and well, she said I was cute. (Oh Yeah!!!!! *Happy dance*) okay not that that's over, see ya.
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Current Music:Prayer-By Disturbed
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Time:06:21 pm
Current Mood:crappycrappy
I have really nothing to say except that perhaps soon I'll be done with this journal I just started, I don't have the time or the money to be going to the net cafe' all the time and writing in this thing, which is why I havn't, maybe when I have the money and etc...I restart my journal...for now I don't know weather to continue or not...I see no real reason to care. *shrug* maybe I should have one.
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Time:03:19 pm
Im so sorry, I havn't wrote in so long. I havn't deserted you!!! *cries* who cares really, I could be anbuis god of life and dead himself and you wouldn't care.*laughs* Anyway, Im here to say my life is hell andd thank you very much. im no longer hanging out with my in person friends, there soo...stressing. I need to meet new people, but I mean that's fucking hard. It's night like I can just sit on a bus and say "Hey, you, want to be my friend?" Im not ten years of age anymore that shit just doesn't work.
Oh well, Im sure I'll run into someone somehow, So what's with life? Do we all really have to be alive, what for what's the point of it all...where is the happinesss? Why can none of us truly be happy. *shakes his head* That's why we have these journals, we understand sarrow and have to release it somewhere. That's what this is for, to me. Somplace to release my pain, and suffering...and my dreams and desires. Yes...thats what I think.
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Current Music:Slither-Velvet Revolver
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Subject:I'm back
Time:03:21 pm
Current Mood:contemplativecontemplative
Okay that was fun in South Carolina, it was a great time. I hated every minute of it. Isn't everything I say a great contridiction from everything else I happen to say. *shrugs* oh well, it happens etc..etc...etc...
I did a past life memory spell on my friend and uncle david. He went into a trance but didn't remember anything. Does that mean he's a new soul? I don't know, I shouldn't have I'm not exprinced enough for it. I've been giving in more and more to that religion of the wilds, of the forests and moon. Wicca...although I consider myself a druid and not a witch. A druid, i Love that title so much already. I need a teacher though, one I can actually see in person. Someone who can help me understand all the things that I don't. Understand though Corona isn't really the best place to try and find witches, Especially ones who know what there doing. *Laughs* oh well, I hope this turns out okay for me.
Hm, I talked to Lauren, I hope she reply's to my e-mail. I think im realizing I can never let that dream from England go. Even if she going to just be my friend for as long as we both live. I don't know. *shrugs* I feel a connection to her, I don't know why. I think I still love her witch is very hard to admit to.
Well that's all I have to say,
The brat prince aka Monsuier la da mort.
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Current Music:Im in the city of angels...forget the name of the artist.
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Time:01:49 pm
Current Mood:gloomygloomy
I Have to go to South Carolina for a couple days, and im not really sure that I want to. but I need a break from cyd, there's no use lying about that. I need to get away from her for a few days she causes me so much pain. Sometimes I think it's best that I just stop feeling for her and be her friend. Yup. No matter what though I promised to stay by her side as long as I chould. Even if it's just as a friend.
Well, we shall she if she's even in the mood for me to be her friend anymore...even if she's not though I still have to watch over her...I have a resposibilty to from someone else...hmm. I wonder was this planned to happen by something...Who cares.
I've decided I want to see more about this wicca stuff, I want to be part of it. I almost was about two years ago, but I was to young to understand it...now im sure of it. I want to be part of that way of life again. Even me, the brat prince, has to admit to it's...power.
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Current Music:Blurry-Puddle of mudd
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Time:04:10 pm
Current Mood:contemplativecontemplative
Okay well I talked to lauren the other day *my old flame, whom really hates me now. I think she thinks alot of terrible things about now. Shit...this is why a romance shouldn't happen no matter what...love is fleeting, it's just a glimpse of hope before it all crashes.*
I really hope we can be friends so she can see the real me, most of the time in any kind of romance, I can't seem to tell the truth. It's a character flaw I have, I lie about things to make myself sound intresting. *shrugs* Im constantly re-creating myself for a girl and well that just shouldn't happen.
So with Lauren I re-created myself and tried very hard to get out of it...*shrugs a bit* You know how it is. Now she hates me because I disappered on her. I hope she allow's me to talk to her, Im trying to seek forgivness really.
It's not like I deserve it, but before she never talks to me again I want her to see the real me, Then decided weather or not to hate me. *shrugs a bit* This is actually the first journal that I have been very honest in. *nods* I've been quite the lying asshole in other journals. The weird thing is, I had to know that I was writing a journal that no one I know well was going to read in order to not lie in it...would that be considered a character flaw. *laughs* Oh well. I don't know what's going on with cyd, she didn't reply to my last e-mail. Which sucks.Okay well that's it...I wonder whats going on with her, I hope she doesn't get into any trouble.
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Subject:amusing...and so true. God I fall in love to easy...
Time:11:43 pm
Current Mood:creativecreative
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PASSIONATE LOVER. You love to love always looking
for a relationship. You cannot live without it.
Your lover must be passionate and you want
that you and your partner melt into each other.
He/She should not try to take the domination.
You don't want a relationship without passion
and the sexuality plays a big part. The first
you meet him/her is one of the
most
important. There has to be something between
you, you cannot explian. From the first moment
on everything must fit. But when this passion disappears you disappear to. For you it is
to leave to see your love
restrianed.
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Current Music:God Hates Me _KORN
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Time:03:15 pm
Current Mood:contemplativecontemplative
Okay well, hm what's there to say about today? I'm even more distraught over cyd, and I can't really help myself. but all I can do is just sit and wait, you know?
Besides that, im worried about a few witch friends of my down in riverside, there running into some trouble with a group of supposed satanists. That really doesn't bowd well with me but hey, that's how it is really. *shrugs some* You alot of people have dark little demons that they don't like to talk about? Funny thing that is. I used to think I was the only devil around here, but fuck...there are alot of people worse then me out there and that's just strange.
Besides that, I think I have two ghosts or something following me around. It's getting to bothering me, because im not sure if it's my imagination or not. *shrugs* I wish I was making that up, life would be so much eaiser. Besides that, I've been having weird dreams, except for last nights, Really indepth dreams, and I can't find meaning in them unless it really could be...but I don't know if I want to belive that.

Fuck...I hate this. Why'd I have to get into all this paranormal crap...
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Current Music:nothing else matters_metallica
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Time:01:37 am
Current Mood:blankblank
Well im just posting because I suppose I should and all that...Um, My name I think is what I should begin with,
I am Elijah Kain, although I have alot of nicknames, I really like anything paranormal, and just plain weird, which is probably why I like manga so much. Anway, I hope people are going to read my journal, I really want to get to know people. For some reason, Im acting very
nice, which is unlike me. I can be very rude sometimes, and usually am most of the time. I just got out of a hard realationship and I think Im falling into another one. altough that will all be decided in five more days. Funny thing to that's how long it will take to happen.
So there' are two possibilty's but let me explian the situation first. There's this girl named cyd, her mother is a friend of my fathers. Now cyd has a boyfriend but even though, she fell for me. We very much like each other, but she can't very well let her current boyfriend go
because she still likes him as much as she likes me. So what we all decided is that she should take seven days away from both me and the boyfriend to decided who she wants. Im just simply waiting. Funny huh?
This is really a strange thing for me waiting for this to happen. Well that's what's going on with me right now. Wensday I might go to downtown riverside (I live in california, riverside county is about an hour away from los angolos) to explore all the neat paranormal shops. Cool huh? Besides that nothing much is going on and well, I hope someone reads this. If not I could just wait the main goal is the write really.
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